“I never wanted children. Now I’m struggling to accept that I might. Here’s why changing your mind on motherhood feels so complicated”

Why I changed my mind about having children

Credit: Lauren Edwards

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“I never wanted children. Now I’m struggling to accept that I might. Here’s why changing your mind on motherhood feels so complicated”

By Lauren Edwards

7 months ago

5 min read

For years, writer Lauren Edwards was certain of one thing: motherhood was not for her. So why, at 30, has she found herself wondering if she might have wanted children all along? Here, she asks why she’s started to question her desire to be child-free – and how she’s navigating this change of heart in her long-term relationship. 


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