“The vision of my life I’d been nurturing evaporated”: can you still be ambitious if you don’t know what you want?

Can you be ambitious if you don't know what you want

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“The vision of my life I’d been nurturing evaporated”: can you still be ambitious if you don’t know what you want?

By Eloise Hendy

3 years ago

2 min read

It might be easier to get what you want if you know what it is – but can you still be ambitious when you feel lost?

For me, ‘ambition’ as a concept always conjured sharp suits, polished shoes, boardrooms and backstabbing. Essentially, it made me think of The Apprentice contestants. Like financial district high rises, it felt hard-edged and money-driven – two things I aspired not to be.

Recently, however, I’ve been reassessing my adverse reaction to ambition. As with many aspects of life now, the pandemic is partly to blame. At the beginning of 2020, I had just started studying for a PhD and, to a large extent, the next three years had felt mapped out for me. I believed I was following a clear path, attached to an institution and – more importantly – a funding plan that would lift me up onto the next rung of the ladder that was my life. Deep down, maybe I thought it was a way to take all the status anxiety and uncertainty that can characterise a person’s late 20s out of my hands. 

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